La Pluie

Weather, sometimes it’s a pain in the butt. Im not an early person, but it’s worse when each day starts out rainy. Yay for rain. In addition, fall is still “sleeping.” Please wake up and bring in the cold breezes and colored leaves, Im bored of this humidity.

So my other zara package came about half a week ago and, like always, Im extremely satisfied with my purchase. My fur coat is beautiful, though its more of an off-white, a creme to be exact. Sarah coined it my “abominable snowman” jacket, but this is slightly extreme. When I picture this christmas character, it’s super huge, fluffy, and bares gray protruding teeth. Im neither huge, my jacket is not poofy, and I definitely lack gray protruding teeth. But Sarah has a knack for making me laugh at over-exaggerated remarks. Now I will be waiting for one more piece before I post a picture of my belongings: the rust colored pants that are in transit from L.A. It should be another week, another long week.

This semester is wearing me thin. I feel like Im transcending reality and fantasy. Im a living zombie, constantly moving and working. I hardly stop and when I do, I feel not-like myself. I think this is affecting my sleep. Weirdly enough, I fall asleep and it feels like Im still awake. My dreams confuse me because by the time I wake, Im trying to sift through whether what I dreamt really happened or whether it was just a dream. So far this doesn’t concern me too much.

I have a trip to asu with a friend to look forward to, so this should help me fly through the weeks until my departure. Im excited, no lie. I need this break, this semi-vacation to help me revive.

On another note, one of my friends Emily works at a zoo. I am always amused beyond compare when I visit, but in the last few days the zoo acquired an additional tiger. She’s 4 weeks old, so this definitely helps the adorable factor. Her name is Saara and playing with her is hysterical. The oversized paws and wobble she has when she walks brings a smile to your face right when you see her. Soon I should have pictures up, but I have to wait until she’s had her shots before I upload them.

Though there are probably several other things I could mention, my mind is slowly falling asleep and my bed is looking extremely comfortable at the moment. So, good night

a very old picture of two people that have made my life what it is: eventful

Obsession

So aside from the hectic and haphazard class work, life is as smooth as it can be. Im trying to reorganize my binders that have become a danger zone for paper cuts due to pointy-paper ends jutting out in various places. Class work can be actively aggressive when it wants to.

So far I’ve kept both the tablet and high tech nikon on my mind, which means I definitely want it. I have this whole philosophy to let things wait a bit, then if you still have this pull towards it, then get it. Its weird, but I’ve learned if i let things rest for a set time, I don’t regret unnecessary purchases…allowing for curious research. In the mean time, i’ve dosed up on online shopping. Its an activity I’ve recently participated in, mostly because I actually like to try things on, plus I dont have physical time to drive to a mall and search during busy semesters like this.

My recent store-victims consist of both old and new ones. There’s Forever21 and Charlotte Russe (though I lean more towards F21, CR’s style is more mainstream) and then the newbies, Zara, Urban1972, topshop and others I find along the way. As I began to look, I realized the clothes I have are so contrasting. I ended up spending over 3 hrs cleaning out my closet, mostly of clothes I stopped wearing or ones I noticed were too out of place. A few pieces I still had a heart for so I slid them into a box and tucked them away.

So far I’ve collected a fascinating fur drawstring bag and awaiting a white fur coat and then a pair of rust colored high-waist vintage pants. The one thing people tend to catch on about me and my personality is that it is heavily characterized by fur and feathers, its an obsession. But once my other two collections come in, a picture will be provided.

On another note, I’ve concluded that Starbucks is my second home. Half of my life is spend in books at starbucks, if only these books were for joy reading. But at least I meet new people and old friends, for that I cant complain.

you're bored? take a pic (sarah, me)

Labor what?

so its labor day and its raining. i’ve been wanting rain for a long time, just so i could sit back, watch a movie, read a book, or just sleep. the pounding of rain on a window, seems to me, to be soothing. thank you mother nature.

our family managed to sneak in a cook out right before it started to rain, so i cant complain. but after finishing a hot dog, i went out on the town. first of all, one of my good friends megan was in town. she’s basically a full time student and comes back for the weekends to work, so after being super busy, she’s super tired. my first stop was her work place, aka my work competition. frozen yogurt employees can be very loyal. rebecca met me there and all three of us sat down, caught up, and ate a bit of yogurt. afterwards we took a little field trip to value village.

so this place is a conundrum. about 80% of the store is full of worn out, useless items. but the other 20%….is quite awesome. just take my word. for instance, i can go in, head to the magazine rack, and if im lucky, i can find Bazaar magazines for 25 cents. and i take them all! i’ve already got a nice stock and i fully plan to invest in more. on top of that, there are old, vintage like electronics…esp cameras. we all found this polaroid camera and before, rebecca found a nice old cannon she could use the lens for zooming. all in all, the place is like sand, you have to dig to find the good stuff.

after that, rebecca left for home to study and i took megan back home so she could leave again for the university. i will miss her again. but we did agree that i would visit in 2 to 3 weeks and i honestly cant wait!

i continued to venture around to starbucks, my work place, and best buy. recently i’ve been wanting a tablet. i absolutely love my laptop, but i want something a little easier to carry around for when i just want on-the-go access. what do i plan on doing with a tablet? the usual plus more. i will def use it to write/store documents, keep my pics and video, access the internet…but i also hope to do more videos/skyping with it, in addition to using it for reading. i’ve never invested in ebooks before, but now is a good of time as ever. while at best buy, i looked at there cameras too. i need something that is a little more high tech and sharper…and i, of course, want to transfer the pics to my computer. right now im just winging things with a normal $100 camera, my ipod, or cell phone. this needs to be fixed. in general, the nikons caught my eye. hello christmas list.

mmm, well, that’s all i can think of for this quick update. back to class work i suppose.

its got to pop

Im still alive

Well hello earth, im back. Between my last post and now, various events have bombarded my life. Some great, others in the middle, and some could say should never have happened. But guess what, they did. And Im still here, happy, energetic, random, and still a clutz.

So after April came May, then June…and the ever famous summer. As my freshman year of college wrapped up, I realized how many years I have been in school. Way too many. When I was 11 or so, I would “play” with my older cousin who was in high school. He seemed so much more older, which he was. But when my little brain started to imagine and try to grasp the conept of high school, well….it couldn’t. It seemed sooooo far away! Like I would never get old enough and that I would never be able to do the things my cousin could. Ohhhhh my little mind, how it still makes me laugh. But here I am, I’ve graduated high school, finished up my freshman year of college, and now barreling through my sophmore year. It would be naive of me to think that it should get easier, but I sure was hoping the stress would stay limited. mmmm, speaking/thinking too soon really should be prohibited. This semester is filled with 3 classes. 3 classes? Oh man, she has it easy…bitch thinks she has it hard. Well, maybe I dont. But trying to take Microbiology, Anatomy and Physiology, and Chemistry all at once seems to suffocate me enough. Esp when all the syllibi and assignments start to run together…bahhh. AP biology was nice, real nice now that I look back.

Well, this year is famous. Crazy weather….like my first earthquake. Thats right, Im no longer an earthquake virgin. The various catastrophies like the hurricanes and tsunamis have left the globe thinking twice about precautions. 2011 you sly devil.

Oh, and the ending of the Harry Potter movie series. Ending is a bit harsh I guess, at least for our human minds to grasp. Imagination just doesnt like to hear that there’s an end or a limitation….so I guess we can all just agree that J.K. Rowling started forming carpal tunnel disease and cut the series short or something. But I seriously loved it! The adventures, the many movie theater memories….esp midnight premieres…..I mean, I can proudly say I grew up with the movies/books.

In addition to wizards and such, I managed to have fun in the sun with my lovely muggle friend cc. Oh a whole week at the beach….seems so much and so little at the same time. My favorite activity (other than shopping)? A juggle between hotel hoping, running in the rain (which felt more like a continuous waterfall wherever I went), and playing in the gigantic golf course sprinklers. But when it comes down to it, its not always the activities that make it worthwhile, its the people you are with. And thats all I needed.

There was another time in which our family travelled down to our beach condo, and that time Alexis came. God I love this girl and how utterly unique she can be. We soaked up the sun, bewitched boys, and shopped together like never before. But lets just pause and go back to the boys. Wow. Mine was one weirdo that I dropped quick. Usually my beach trips other a wider variety of guys. I can choose from tan or white, brown hair/blonde hair, super buff or toned…I mean its like ordering pizza. But maybe it was the time of year that we went…idk. I wont ever know. But I digress. Short story, the boy told me that when he saw me he knew I was his future wife. Ok, yeah….hahaha, funny. I see, just random talk to get you smiling. But no, this dude was serious. And then after a day of texting I get various messages saying he “loves me.” Hold up. Pause. Delete. Forget and never look back. And that right there is my funny beach boy story.

But before I said goodbye to my lovely summer vacation/break, I rounded up a few friends and we went camping. Island camping. An evening out on the lake, listening…or lets say blasting music, riding the jet ski in the pitch black, ordering pizza, canoeing until 4 am, and of course making a fire was the ever so superb and perfect ending to my summer.

But that’s that, onward I go…marching to another drum. Sophmore year, here I come.

me, caroline, and cc. one of those lazy summer days where we randomly meet on the turf

find something to do, and make it a contest

saying goodbye is never easy. Fabian and Christian, my lovely german friends

being goofy shows your true potential of being happy

i wish i could carry the beach with me everywhere

my life in fastfoward. jenna, me, cc

our island/camping getaway. britt, ashley, me, emily

davidson. a yellow brick wall. so simplistic, yet my ultimate favorite

endless

how many months has it been since i posted? lots! So much work for my classes and of course my job, then there is drama, and of course trying to fit in social life while trying to manage my room’s cleanliness and websites, like this.

honestly, i try to stay away from drama. and im pretty sure that phrase gets used more often than it should, but really, i do. but recently its seems to like me. following me around when i least need it. boy drama is normal…he likes me, but doesnt want a relationship. or maybe its i like him yet he likes someone else….blah blah blah. boy drama= all the same. every situation is a duplicate of another, whether its my problem or someone else’s half way across the world. yet it trips me up everytime.

whats worse is when drama changes sides from the opposite sex to the sex you are most familiar with. god, i love being a girl but some girls are bitches! i swear. anyway, what it comes down to is this. i had a friend. we knew each other ever since we were in intermediate school. we started to “rekindle” our friendship. or at least i thought. she talks smack about me. she refrains from telling me how she feels. things explode and we are no longer friends. the end. …..= nutshell story. and that kind of drama, in my opinion, is worse than boy drama.

but other than the weirdly shocking and still somewhat exciting last two weeks, everythings been good. i visit Chapel hill and App to see my friends and chill whenever i can. and that is pretty much it. other than the anxiousness for the summer to arrive. the thought of days on the lake, tanning, waking up late with the sun shining and a breeze coming through the window…well, it just makes everything worth my time. hopefully it comes soon!

oh yeah…and i had a birthday between the post gap. cant believe i forgot that…

Two Zero One One…Here we come

So 2011 rolled around pretty quick. I went ahead and spent New Year’s with two very close friends, C and Hannah. They came by and picked me up and then I realized what I missed about riding with C…it was rapping loud to the best female bitch rapper, ms Nicki Minaj. We went by a local store and picked up sparkling wine and 2 movies…but i was depressed. My card kept getting decline, a bad sign. I hope this doesnt have something to do with horrible financial happenings for the future year. The rest of the night was characterized with a horrible mtv showing of the New Years ball drop, jake’s new system, long girl talks, drunk parents, and discussions of where Nice is. I enjoy every moment i get with these two :p

The week continues with the normal work and random rendevous with friends before we all head back to our college schedules that, im sure, will seem forever due to the long awaited summer. I will miss them, but of course I will be making a trip to Chapel as soon as i can…and hopefully with the lot- Jessie, Dara, and Caroline. I will be depending on them way to much with directions lol.

I feel like i should start listing the craziest strories and events that have colored my break, but I think it will make it end quicker. I guess i will just wait till the break is actually over before i start naming them; this will at least give me something to update this blog with instead of normal class stories.

bonjour

Dec. 26, both a white christmas and day after :p awesome time with c!

 

C with our nicki minaj snowwoman :p

 

 

me and meg, before she left for app on her new mac book. i miss and love you!!

 

those girls is trifilin- coral, sarah, and me. gangster style

 

horseback riding at hannah’s, c’s first time :p

 

lf to rght- hannah, me, and caroline. hilarious time 😀

2010, around the bend

hehehe, i feel like im over indulging myself by saying this…but i love this post title, just saying.

so this year is coming to a close and a ton of obstacles have braced me…and a ton of not-obstacle-like events have happened. but to the people who read this, you only know half of everything. this is neither bad or good, but for whatever i do post, i hope it either makes you laugh, smile, or either connect to me and what im saying.

so on nov 18 me and … basically had the official, “lets be friends” talk. i felt it coming and it didnt phase me to cry or get frustrated. it only led me to doubt and question whether what we had was real or fake. but i guess i will never know. or maybe i will.

so i’ve managed to grow close to new friends and old friends. thanks for the awesome times ciera, julie, hannah, caroline, ulises, cori, megan, rebecca, becca, cody, brittany, christine….and so many more! this year has been wonderful mixed with a side of hard and you guys helped me finish the plate. less than three.

i feel like things will just get harder, which is something im not really scared off but more anxious about. ive met a new guy and i seriously dont know how its going to go down with the parents…or maybe i should say mother. any relationship i’ve had has never really been accepted and im just wondering if they can understand im not a child anymore. well…that might not even be the reason. im thinking it has to do with control…though i may be wrong.

but either way, i want closure, support, and understanding. hopefully 2011 can offer me that. i’ve never bothered to do the new years resolution…bc i live my life day by day, and i tend not to regret. if i have an epiphany in the middle of the year, well then im going to go through with it and not wait till next year. duh…

but i am hoping this upcoming year can bring forth something better…at least offer me what i never had before.

ciera and i, less than three!

me and megan, she rocks yellow pants like no one else can rock them!

megan, sarah, skylar, and i being crazy...those crazy davidson nights :p

me, ciera, julie, and hannah- best buy adventures...just to make sure the macs are in perfect condition

so yes…only a few pictures, a thousands memories, and yet a whole life time to make more. i only wish for one thing, to live, truely live

bonne soir!

stuff that chicken, turkey, just stuff it

lol…and here we go with the deja vu…because honestly, its been a long time since i’ve posted

lots has changed, nothing new..mmm, verbal irony i think?

so, the bo is out of the picture. after sharing the beginning and now the end of my relationship with him with my die-hard followers, it might seem personal. in fact, it is. so we had a serious relationship, at least i thought so…and at least he voiced so. whether it is true and from his heart i will never know. i trust him though…i dont know why, esp since i have the worst trust issues. but i think its because i sympathize…maybe even believe he is a “lost soul/cause”. whether i am a rebound or an honest attraction, only he can tell…and only when he is not confused. his dazed wandering has him looking for love in all the wrong places…trying to move on quicker….and i feel that he needs to learn to live again, to love again, to feel again. because without moving on, you cant live your life. so yes, i am sad it is over…a little frustrated…but not mad. not irrate. more sympathetic. and for whatever reason, im glad.

now on to the classes. they have been wonderful in general. im wrapping them up and starting on finals…finishing up chapters…getting ready for the end to come and a new beginning…which brings up to thanksgiving and christmas and then the big new years of ’11!!!

i am currently on my holiday break and enjoying every moment of it. most of my college friends are back in town and im desperately trying to schedule my time with them around family and work. im succeeding so far and lets hope it stays that way :p

today i managed to kidnap cc and head to northlake mall to go shopping. something i feel really guilty about…because im not excercising “the gift of giving” mood…im selfish at the moment and grabbing the eye-popping items off the shelf and marveling at them before i decide to buy them for my own. so yes, very selfish…but with my fam being very uncorroperative- if thats how you spell it- in the “christmas list” tradition…im running low on ideas that will fully satisfy my lovely relations. so i had a talk with my sis…and i’ve got her down with a photography portfolio, a dry erase board calendar, and a gift card for either forever21 or charlotte russe. then my dad, who doesnt like much to begin with, will receive a gift card to cook out…his new fav place to eat. why? because his never ending thrist for all things bannana can finally be quenched through the bannana milkshakes cook out offers 😛 then there is my mom…who is one of the most fickle people ever. you buy what she likes/wants and then she wants you to return it. so my solution, a gap gift card. and in all my years of shopping, esp during christmas, i’ve never bought a gift card…so i guess its piled up to this very year. congrats :p

so after shopping with cc, we went to her place, chilled a bit, and then headed to the park where we indulged ourselves in a photo op :p they turned out lovely, but it was quite aggravating since the lighting was dimming due to our lateness and un scheduled plans :p but they did turn out well and im proud!

well, thats all for now. have a happy thanksgiving! be safe and remember to be grateful, for anything and everything!!

bon soir!!

cc in the fur hat i found- its to die for :p work it cc!!

riding a gigantic lady bug never was so much fun :p

hehe…hoho

wow, its been 8 days since i’ve posted. its been forever!

so first off is the bo issue- horrible texter, wonderful lover. there is always positive and negative, and i guess im just going to have to come to terms with that. life’s a bitch isn’t it?

next is school- yay scccooooo!! god, 1st semester is almost over. im excited, and slightly sad. im doing wonderful with all my classes, and honestly, i think the stress helps. at least for the focus part. plus, with this semester ending, it means im only closer to finishing the first year, than the second…and im not sure, but eventually i will be at UNCW. im anxious and excited and every day brings me closer.

and then there is the work- its normal. hilarious when the friends drop in. I got a chance to see shaun and lauryn- a nice, sarcastic meeting. and then there was becca, sarah, and seth. and boy- did i laugh! they are crazy and it made my night go by so much faster. apparently you can change lady gaga’s lovegame song to a bible game song…seth, you are one unique-bible-loving friend :p

and then there are the holidays!!! god- so quick! where did 2010 go? well obviously, behind us…but like always, the years seem simultaneously long and short. got to love time.

along with the usual, there is the unusual. so yes, i now have a facebook and a twitter…i figure i might as well try to float in the social networking world. honestly, i like it…but it seems dull as well. im unbiased. just as long as i dont neglect it, i will look at myself as successful :p

oh, and time has changed. we are now technically an hr behind…which means more sleep. but in all essence…im going to bed early and waking up early. i hate it…what is wrong with me? lol…maybe not the right question.

so right now two of my best friends are uber sick. one is in the hospital and the other basically has no voice. i feel useless…but i did visit one today at her house. it was calming to see her after so long.  we had enough of laughs, conversations of new news, and reminiscing thoughts to help rejuvinate me :p less than three cc!

well, for now thats all- bonne soir!

love you my ap bio buddies!

past the present to the future!

mmm- so, i found that bugging someone is both good and bad. i mean, you get a reply, but then you also risk annoyance. but lets just say that either things will be solved soon enough or they will fall apart- and i need to be mature enough to swallow both.

so i just got done watching last week’s smallville, supernatural, and at least 2 season episodes of ANTM….which were awesome ;p  it really makes me want to take pictures, constantly. then again, it would be even sicker if i had the incredible amount of makeup, wardrobe outfits, and special cameras….but either way, i love photography. even if im not the best- and believe me, im not. but i love to try.

so this sunday is halloween- and i really wish i was at a university and didnt have the responsibility of a job…really bad! i need to get out of this town. but i keep telling myself, its for money. and it is. so- just keep pulling through and it will only be for a bit longer but either way, i wish i could be lady gaga. i would die to dress up like her!! but the costume would cost a shit load, i already looked at the poker face costume….hahah. no way. i saw these sick glasses that were hanging to the side- they were 10.99.  i was depressed after looking at them. i want them badly. but i need to save the money for the car, christmas, my contacts, and the possible lady gaga concert in NY. again…i try to motivate myself past the present to the future

oh and i also had an advisor meeting. so the college was stupid enough to put me with a math-majored advisor than a science oriented advisor. go figure. so i am now being vollied to another advisor. hopefully it turns out well. personally i like being the vollier and not the vollied. sooo….i looked over some of the papers handed to me that review the associate i am applying for. im pretty sure that if i try hard enough, and push myself, i could be done by fall 11. maybe. i hope so.

lol…so im tired, and hungry- again. so getting off

bonne nuit!

ANTM: cycle 14, vampire shoot. it looks creepy. if you look closely, they have the models wearing pure white contacts- they couldn’t see at all. you can see the passion

ANTM: cycle 15, fallen angels shoot. i love how they incorporated other male models. i think ann possessed the most emotion.